Life in a bundle.

Ahhhh Cancun is amazing, im enjoying myself being stress free =)!!! Thats how its going to remain !!!! Love ittt, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANKIE !!!

Cancun 2012

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Can’t wait to meet my other half in Cancun on sundayyyy =) !!!! Exciting

Lost & Found.

 I really don’t usually write about my personal business on social networks, but I need to let go. I feel this weight on my shoulders from everything in my life well just about everything.

Most recently, I have been in a 8 month dating relationship and things have been rough along the way but something continues to keep me here. I can’t and won’t let go because I see it as a challenge. In past experiences, I have just been known to leave situations, or not take the other person as serious. I’m tired of doing that. If you love you love. I can only imagine back in the 50’s where you were married before really knowing the person and committed to them for the rest of your life. I always think about that struggle, and compare it to how easy it is for us in this generation to date who we want, love who we want, fuck who we want but yet when challenges are posed we also see ourselves running from those same things. I’m done running.

Yet I feel incomplete, sometimes I feel as though well what If I’m giving too much and things turn out sour, then I think about this idea of taking risks. I will always remember when I first met my roommate she told me ” the bigger the risk, the greater the outcome” this I will take with me in my many adventures of life. I’ve been crying ya’ll. Shit has happened so fast its a bit overwhelming. I’m in Miami, met who i think might be the love of my life, deciding to start my career here, my real friends and family are up north…I’m all over the place. Sometimes when we have our arguments I begin to think if this is all worth it, is my love here worth my comfort up north.

 I’m willing to let go of my fears and stay but I’m afraid that if I do and become unhappy, forgiveness will delay coming. I will never be able to find the right one, but if I’m with the right one now, things need to get better. I know I am a female. I require enough attention, compliments and support 24/7. Well not 24/7 but you know what I mean.

As humans I feel as though sometimes we may get caught up in thinking that we are being the best person we can be, until someone tells you how you made them feel and you think twice like umm really? Damn, I thought I was doing it well this whole time. I have grown into becoming a better me not only for my well being but for my passion in servicing others. I don’t know, I found and lost myself all at once. One of you probably feel the same way. 

I love you, please believe me, take me into your arms and caress my heart

Learn to let go, I’m the person you know me to be

Let it happen

Invest your love in our souls

You’ll be a millionaire

Learn to let go

Their waiting for you.

 Accept their offer.

Deep inside
Sighs are taking over
Glazing my heart
with thoughts of doubt
my lips solemnly turned the other way
My hearts feels it and starts creeping away
& you will be the death of me
im convinced that part of brain that connects with the fist of this muscle that pumps into my arties is seperate.

-random